Waves hi

Holy shit ya’ll has it really been over a year, ok more like 2 years at this point. There were so many times I wanted to sit down and write, or I did but the words wouldn’t come, or they sounded like shit. Then life gets all in the way. And depression sneaks its way […]

Grief doesn’t make you a better person

A few weeks ago there was so much hate, so much ugliness, and pure evil spread throughout the baby loss community. This is a community no one wants to join. We are that club you want to stay far away from. And most of the time we are fiercely loyal and protective of our own. […]

genetics, pills, and stupid people

After Annaleigh died we were told that we could have genetic testing done to see if either one of us is a carrier of some kind of genetic disorder that may have caused her trisomy. We figured no we don’t want to go through that it was just a fluke thing. (And honestly what if, […]

A different kind of loss

But a loss all the same. Two incredibly faint little lines. Pregnant. We did it! And it was on our second try. Holy shit! Our rainbow baby! This one due to come the day before Annaleigh’s birthday. I planned out our family costumes for Halloween already. Rylee would be a Dalek, Emmett a cyberman, Eric […]