I’m trying my best to not focus on what should be.
You know live in the right now.
Not the yesterday.
Not the in the picture I had in my head.
For the most part I do ok.
I am doing ok, my good days are more frequent.
But it’s so hard.
Sometimes all I can think is that Annaleigh should be going on 5 months old.
I should currently be halfway through a pregnancy.
But I don’t have either of those.
Annaleigh has been dead almost 8 months.
8 freaking months.
3 months since my miscarriage.
I want my babies back.
I want to cry, but the tears just won’t come.